Speechless...I mean....what?

So over the last couple days I have been following the Chris Benoit murder suicide news, im still in total shock and disbelief over the whole situation. I mean the more information that comes out the more I cannot begin to fathom what has happened. I mean growing up I was a fan of wrestling, and eventhough over the last few years I rarely watched I still had respect for those I considered the old school wrestlers. The guys that went out and gave 110% and put on a show, didnt go into the territory that the current wwe is known for.

So when I first heard this I thought it was a new stupid storyline that vinnie mac was pushing. And before I go on think about that, that is how jaded a wrestling fan is. The first thing that comes to mind is a new storyline for ratings.

The next morning when I turned on the news and seen the crime scene tape on the front gate of Benoits home my jaw hit the floor. I havent been that shocked in a long long time. Even now I feel like there is a hole in me and im very conflicted about it. One side of me doesnt want to accept that he killed his family and himself due to drugs or whatever the press is pushing as a reason. To me there has to be more to it than that, something must have been going on.

Thats the rub I suppose, nobody will ever know why he did what he did. The best csi, investgation teams, etc will never be able to pinpoint why this happened. I think for me as a fan and a human being viewing this I feel the need to get some sort of resolution. I cannot accept the man just went nuts and all these terrible things happened.

I cannot comment on his state of mind or anything that might have been happening around the time of this tragedy. All i can say is that I sent out my condolenses to all the family, friends, and fans connected to this situation. I feel pity for Chris, for what he did in any case is truly terrible. That being said I will remember the man for how he was in the eyes of a wrestling fan. I hope that where ever he is now he is at peace. It is just so unfortunate that his family had to go with him.

We will never know what the reasons for what happened were, its just another piece of todays society coming to the surface. I believe this happens more often then not in our world, being that this is a celebrity it is brought into the limelight. It makes things that much more difficult to accept. This is the world we live in, the question is where do we go from here?

Hmmm....maybe i should start building an arc...

Man it rained all day, it was a good solid rain too. With all this water lately im starting to wonder if I should invest in a boat. You know, just in case.

On the home stretch to my holidays, one day down and 3 to go. Things are pretty busy at work too so it will be nice to take a break for a bit and recharge. Im definately feeling the need for some time off, its like I just do not have the motivation to function lol.

Ive been checking out some new music lately, Sirius radio has some good stations that will play stuff other than the top 40 so I get to hear new things. If I like the band or song I can tag it and the radio will alert me when its on. This also comes in handy for remembering the song or band name as well. One band I heard is called Framing Hanley, the song is called hear me now. Very good stuff, if you like breaking benjamin they kind of have that sound.

I will probably be picking up this album as in buying it, rare right? There just isnt that much for music out right now. Its like in a lull, so when something with some good lyrics and a solid sound comes around Im all over it. Framing Hanley's Website. Check it out, good stuff.

Ive done a couple more paint jobs in forza as well so check out my photobucket account from the previous post. I actually had a guy from texas request a custom paintjob for some in game cash which i did. I also had somebody from france buy a car from me and accidently erase the paintjob! I redid it for him as you can save the paintjob for the car and drop it back on no problem. The trouble was trying to explain how we would make the exchange as he spoke little english and I spoke no french but we got it done. He was happy and so was I hehe. Im actually getting people on the game message boards sending me requests to do paintjobs for them, pretty cool.

The next one I will do is for my little bro, it will be a Zakk Wylde theme car. Google him if you dont know who this is, but a guitar legend. So I have some ideas and it should look sweet.

Anyways thats it for right now, but if I think of something Im sure I will return.

Holy crap Forza 2 rocks!

I have been wrapped up in Forza 2 for the xbox 360 for the past couple weeks, I am just really into this game. I had my doubts as I didn’t really get into the first forza that much but im hooked on this one. In a nutshell it is a racing simulation game (similar to Gran Turismo if you have played that) where you buy, race, customize, and tune a vehicle. As you progress you unlock more cars and earn more money and discounts on parts and such.

A big part of this game also lies in its custom paint/ vinyl section where you can design paint jobs and vinyls to your hearts content. Now the vinyl patterns are all your basic shapes such as squares, triangles, etc as well as the alphabet in a few fonts and some premades such as flames and such. However the versatility of the tools is nuts. You can resize, skew, rotate, and add levels of transparency to these vinyls and create anything! I have seen some insanely good paint jobs where the vinyls look like an airbrushed painting.

My first attempt was to recreate the local radio station’s car, a black GTO. I spent a Saturday designing and recreating the logos, sponsor logos and such. It turned out really great I think. I sent some photos of it to the goat guys and they added it to their website and all really liked it and thought it was cool as hell. WWW.BORDERROCK.COM and click on the “Caught on Film” link to see it, its under the Goats GTO goes online.

The forza 2 game allows you to upload pictures of your car that you can take in game to their website, from there you can download them. I am keeping a journal of sorts of my paint jobs that I am doing. To see them all click here: http://s211.photobucket.com/albums/bb65/solartwitch/

I made a ninja turtle car and it is one of my favs for sure, I spent at least 20 hours on that paint job and all those details are made using the various shapes all resized and shifted to build what I wanted. I am really hooked on the painting portion of it and you can actually auction your cars through the game as well so other players can buy them and use them on their games. I sold a copy of my turtle car already and a couple others, it is pretty cool.

I am pretty much giving a fast rundown of what this game has to offer, but I highly suggest giving it a look if anything I mentioned caught your attention.

Its been raining like crazy here and I am currently engaged in a battle with the mushroom kingdom in my backyard, these mushroom rings have sprung up like crazy and they just….wont….die….. Ugh.

Ah well at least its not snowing or something bizarre like that, ill take rain anyday.

My little brothers high school grad is coming up and it’s a weird thing to think about, in my head hes still my little 12 yr old brother lol I guess that would be about the age he was when I left to go to college so that could be why. He is actually looking at moving to the city I am currently in (its not a huge place, like 28000 people) so that would be cool. Rollnig off the grad weekend is my first week of holidays and I cant wait! Its been over a year since my last holidays and I am ready. I plan on doing a whole lot of nothing, followed by sleeping and gaming. I will visit my folks through the long weekend/grad weekend and then head home to veg. Good times. I booked another week in the first week of August too, so I will have that to look forward to when I get back from my July holidays haha.

Well that’s about it for now, check out my car pics and if you are interested in getting one of the designs I set up some auctions every day or two so keep an eye out on the auction house!